I JUMPED OFF THE WINDOW, RAN AWAY & NEVER CAME BACK, and here’s what I learned from it:
Ok, before I start let me just say I’m crazy. hahahaha I really am, and I love it! Being crazy got me out of trouble a thousand times. And the reckless bold acts I played were lifesavers. ALWAYS!!!!!!
I learned from very harsh experiences that my body should be trusted no matter what. Tough circumstances but a really great lesson.
My body talks, it tells me absolutely everything that’s going on. What’s good, what’s bad, and everything in between. It’s a perfect machine that keeps me alive AND is my biggest cheerleader and best friend. There are no downsides to having a beautiful human body, let’s put it that way.
In the beginning, I trusted my body unconsciously and did the craziest sh*t you can possibly imagine! hahaha Really blunt! Running on stilettos at top speed to escape danger. Jump inside the police officer’s car. Jumping off the club’s bathroom windows. Leaving unannounced and disappearing from places and situations. I really went bananas for decades.
And, to be honest, if there’s no way I can solve the problem decently I’m willing to go back to my roots and run away again to save myself today. hahahaha
This desperation to escape stopped the day I understood I could be a woman and transition from being a child (a helpless manipulated girl) into a limitless goddess! By far the greatest transformation of my life!
That was the process that taught me I had options and infinite possibilities. It was my birthright to stay, demand respect, and set the clearest boundaries. I had the power to stand still, unshakable, and ask my abusers to step back, please, because they were going too far. I could be kind, loving, and firm, and speak exactly what was in my mind respectfully, loudly, and clearly.
Standing my ground didn’t mean conflict. It meant establishing boundaries that were fair to my Soul and theirs. Two people respecting each other and lovingly speaking their needs into existence so everybody was good.
I began to test and force myself to stay in situations that would make me run before. The idea was to look people in the eyes and see what I could find. I found fear.
Second I challenged myself to speak no matter how it came out. Then speak from my heart and say exactly what the person made me feel and what was going on in my mind. Later I began to naturally speak my boundaries into existence. A little too loud at first, but then it became easier.
It was conquered one step at a time. Away from cameras, angles, gossip, and backstabbing. “This is what you did to hurt me. Here’s how I felt. Here’s where the boundaries were crossed even after I clearly expressed them to you. For that reason, I’m going away and you won’t be able to access me in any way anymore”.
THE DIFFERENCE THIS MADE AND STILL MAKES IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!
Speaking how you feel and what you think from a space of vulnerability and love is so powerful!!!!!!!!! People don’t really know what to do with it because you weren’t clingy or needy. You simply spoke vulnerably from the most powerful space you carry inside. It’s much more effective than running away because you access and speak directly with their souls. It goes past the ego and all the expectations. It throws people completely but they really do step back and learn how to respect you.
I learned that my word means something to me. Keeping my word every single time is important to me and creates the credibility I desire to have.
Being open and vulnerable teaches people that I’m brave and respect them enough to offer them who I am with no masks. They see me. So when I ask for or speak about something, they know it comes from the purest place I own and I’m not playing them to take advantage.
By starting relationships like that, people know I care for them, I build great things from the ground up, and I own a rock-solid foundation that keeps me still and grounded no matter what. They admire and respect it.
People respect honesty and recognize it from a million miles distance. Those who’re not ready to match it energetically, fall short and get repelled by my aura. But those who are ready come in, in the purest way, and magic grows from there.
Trusting my body and myself, that sacred place we hold inside that’s just ours, made me brave enough to stay when it was safe to do so (physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually). It made me face my biggest fears and finally occupy the space I was born to live in.
My relationships transformed and most of the people I went around with are not in my life anymore. I feel infinitely better than I did before. And my anxiety disappeared completely never to be found again.
I want this for you, and that’s what I do WITH you at La Ansiedad! You won’t be alone. I don’t boss you around. I follow my own instructions and go with you from the beginning to the end nonstop!