I remember the desperation of feeling suffocated, feeling sick, sweating, and trembling just by being uncovered out in public. I remember the insane overthinking, the anticipation, freaking out 6 weeks before the actual event, not being able to speak in front of the class, and feeling my face paralyzing; literally having a fit from knowing they were looking at me and I had no protection and wasn’t see through.
I remember asking for help and no one showing up.
I felt misunderstood, invisible, crazy different, and isolated, all at once. And I’ve always been a happy person, so that didn’t match what I had deep inside, you know? And the situation only got worst, because the more I grew the more responsibilities I had and the more suffocated I felt.
The feeling was that of having a ball of fur stuck in my throat; trying to spit it and it being stapled in my amygdalas. There are no words to describe how I felt properly. The only thing that comes close is a very sad heavy cry, full of sorrow.
At the peak of my despair, I began to have insomnia. At that time I would wake up at 6 am to go to work and sleep at 1 am because I went to Uni at night. If I couldn’t sleep those few hours I had, very soon my health would be compromised big time.
So God told me to attend yoga classes at the gym. Off I went and told the teacher about my ever-racing mind and unbearable anxiety. He told me there was a solution but I had to commit to being extremely disciplined. So I started meditating with him every day after class. Many times I left the room crying out of despair. Every day I left disappointed. But one day my mind was so out of control I forced myself to stay still and sit until the end of practice. I couldn’t take it anymore.
I. COULDN’T. TAKE. IT. ANYMORE.
At some point, my mind got tired of itself and turned off.
I felt the best feeling I’d ever felt in my life: peace.
Life changed. I wasn’t my thoughts. I had thoughts. And what I have I choose to keep or not. It was an option, not a condition.
From then on, I learned that traditional healing techniques don’t work for me because I’m too different, too sensitive to energies, and feel everything too intensely for them. They care for the mind and I need something that cares for the body and the soul. So I created my own method!
So today I’m here telling you this story because I believe it can resonate and change your path to one that’s more positive and joyful! Maybe we’re more similar than we thought!
The day I meditated for the first time was the same day I began to develop my method and I didn’t even know it! So now I’m here (feeling proud as hell) telling you that I’ve created a masterclass on the topic of anxiety to help YOU feel infinitely better than you did before! It’s life-changing and approaches anxiety from such a new and different angle! That’s what I have to bring to the table!
I hope you love it! I hope it helps you transform completely! And I hope you build the most beautiful life you can possibly think of!
With so much love as always!
Cá!